Internally Bleeding

I'm not the kid I was before But I'm certainly not the man that I adore I want to help the people in my life But I constantly shun them away I don't know much But I know I'm redundantly refusing treatment for my psychopathy And loosing the words and there meanings I'm Internally bleeding Cuz I'm loosing faith In this person I see in the mirror This light is blinding me And I'm filling my heart with vigor All these sleepless nights and heartless plights You'd think I'd have it to a science But no I can't tell what's wrong I'm just left here pleading While my hearts internally bleeding Close your eyes and open them up Maybe you'll see a new point of view These halls never seemed so empty Until you left me alone in this room I'm not the person I was before But I'm certainly not the man I want to adore But maybe soon I'll reach that new bloom And turn into a man But until then I'll sleep with this pen And write all my nightmares and thoughts So on and so forth I'll bleed I'll cry I may just die But I don't care because I'm loosing faith In this person I see in the mirror This light is blinding me And I'm filling my heart with vigor All these sleepless nights and heartless plights You'd think I'd have it to a science But no I can't tell what's wrong I'm just left here pleading While my hearts internally bleeding I'm loosing face I won't pretend anymore You see right through me anyway No matter the time or day And I won't leave you behind anymore I'll burn these bridges that lead back to her And I'll make this battle a hefty one Cuz I'm loosing faith In this person I see in the mirror This lights blinding me And I'm filling my heart with vigor All these sleepless nights and heartless plights You'd think I'd have it to a science But no I can't tell what's wrong I'm just left here pleading While my hearts internally bleeding Cuz I'm loosing faith In that person I see in the mirror The lights blinding me And my heart is filling with pain All these sleepless nights and heartless plights You'd think I'd have it to a science No I can't tell what's wrong I'm just left here pleading While my hearts internally bleeding I'd come to you But this wall is way to high I'd come to you But these bricks are too strong I'd run to you If this wall wasn't in the way I'd break right through for you And we'd have our happiest day