Too Far Gone

So what if I die tonight Will my name be up in lights Will you see me in the sky Could you say I was the guy That made a difference in the world Chasing dreams never girls Only love never pearls But you got my heart making swirls Not materialistic, never unrealistic Kept my dreams real cause I knew I was in it When my body's dead, will my name still be alive When I'm too far gone will you ever realize What drove me to the end or what gave me that drive My soul went ghost but depression still survived My future looks bleak and dark and tough Maybe cause I'm weak and scarred and rough I left god a voicemail, he never called back The devil hit my line and he turned my heart black I was going straight but I'm missing a jack 10 Songs, king of wrongs got my queen and I snapped If I die before I wake Pray to god my soul to take If I die tonight, if I die tomorrow Will I be filled with fear or will I be filled with sorrow If I die before I sleep I pray that gods the one I meet Pray that god has whiskey, and maybe a chaser Looking back on my life was I the coach or was I the player Yo I'm lost can someone find me a map So I can get back on track to the days where I'd snap Or maybe that's the problem, maybe that's the issue Fists always clenched never reaching for a tissue God I repent, I'm praying for my sins I'm knocking on the door someone come and let me in Don't wanna meet the Devil don't wanna meet Dante Not trapped in the inferno, but that's what they all say These feelings aren't expressed Even when they might be I'm hoping that god doesn't come down and smite me For having my demons sitting right here beside me We have our study groups on the basis of nightly Anger on my right, regret on my left They meet in the middle on the base of my chest Replacing my heart, call that cardiac arrest These are my thoughts, sincerely Genesis