Pain and Suffer

I was cleaning up the house when You Had first died Wakin up at night and felt my eyes Cried You know I’ve been suffering All this pain and shit Had to write about it I was cleaning up the house when You Had first died Wakin up at night and felt my eyes Cried This shit is gettin the best of me Ian gonna lie But I can’t do nothing about it so Imma let you fly Stay cautious in your life bc this shit Is wild I didn’t do shit to nobody why’d you Do me foul A lot of that pain and suffering since A lil child Heart broken up inside but I still kept A smile God just called a family member here We go again Another funeral I got to go to this is Like number ten First death was at 9 couldn’t even Comprehend Remembering all the memories we Had back then Can’t read my mind but imma paint a Beautiful pic Vivid Society teaching us a lesson like we In civics Can’t let pass reflect my future I gotta Go and get it I don’t like people no mo but I am not timid Imma put my body in a pot and you Gone see me grow You gotta earn respect here can’t get That from the store Pallbearers for my unc goin six below Everybody turned fake no need to Help me cope Can’t call anyone broke bc I know How it feels A couple times the reaper was out Trynna get me killed A lot of difficult times was trynna get a meal No trynna impress people I’m just Trynna be real Doc trynna put me on the pill doe Ts gone make me ill doe Confuse my brain for real doe Man Is this pain gone end doe Events I gotta attend doe My head about crash call geico A lot of these blessings opening up So imma go through the front doe Imma work hard and standout And still remain so humble We not takin the same route The road you took gone tumble We gone let things play out But whatever you do don’t fumble I was sleepin in the bed when I Got the message Woke up and looked at my phone And saw about 40 texts What the f*ck is goin on now I’m Back Stressing Bout to pull the plug on pops that Shit is so depressing Got in the whip speedin fast About to get pulled over Cars stupid on the road Gone make me blow the motor Thoughts goin crazy in my head Feel like a roller coaster Hit the place went in his Room and saw his life was gone Geno