Somber

Seasons come and go, moments disappear Memories turn grey I haven't smiled in a year I try my best to persevere but It's unclear how much that I can take Decades worth of weight upon these shoulders have me bound to break Open wide I sleep awake, lucid dreaming all the time Intertwined with the night sky where I search for mine Check for signs of life inside a painting that I thought was real Travel to the end of time unlearning what I'm made to feel Maybe I can help you heal, maybe I can help you see Maybe if I pick you up, you could do the same for me Lately I've been asking if it's even worth the time Sinking with the ship and singing shanties with the sky Still every single solitary choice that lead me to this place If not mistake a stroke of luck or maybe something known as fate Therefore I paint myself with wings ascending high above the trap Stare at the abyss and the abyss stares back Withdrawing from attention makes me feel some type of way I want so badly to be heard but I don't know what I would say Overthinking always second guessing like my 2nd nature Just a couple more behaviors working against my favor I've been trapped inside a self-destructive cycle on repeat The more I fight to free my feet the further in they sink The line is getting blurry between me and who I'd be If I could finally break the chains that bind my mind beneath the sea you see Solutions are subjective often answers hide in plain We differ in objective but our blood look like the same Restless indirection of the soul results in shame Which then in turn perpetuates that vicious cycle of destain But know surviving life in spite of fighting fire we evolve Emotions merely momentary love outlive it all Fear will soon dissolve along with hate we'll liquidate Into one billion beads of blood and sweat I'm painting in my wake