Hate Me By Now

On the table in the kitchen behind the screen and the keys there's a message that I don't want to read Cause I know how he is he doesn't know I am and it's been so long since he's seen me The last time I saw him nobody smiled cause his son and my mother had split Four kids between them sad and confused but nobody seemed to give a shit Now I wonder what years have done to him I hear that his time's running out I want him to know that I love him But I'm sure that he hates me by now His son took the high road straight out of town and he spoke not a word to his kids So we stayed with our mother and were raised by another man Now all our names are his Well he heard from a friend that his boy was a man and was married with kids of his own So he looked at himself and said what the hell good is being right and all alone so he wrote I wonder what years have done to you There's much I've only heard about I want you to know that I love you But I'm sure that you hate me by now So I wrote him a note said I'd let it all go and I truly hope he's doing well But I swear on my life that my kids and my wife they'll never know that kind of hell They'll never wonder what years have done to me. They know I'll always be around And if the Lord called my number tomorrow, I'll know they don't hate me right now I'll know they don't hate me right now On the table in the kitchen, behind the screen and the keys, there's a message that I don't want to read