Doubt

What was I thinking Why should I care My ship is sinking, my weakness laid bare Walls are too high, the barrier's too strong I've been trying for so long, but now it seems all wrong Why did I even start this journey Who do I think I am I am not worthy, just the perpetrator of a scam Any time I shout, nobody hears Any time I whisper, nobody cares Hostility and resistance and constant tears Cut down to size for anyone who dares I am only one soul, how could I possibly know Too lofty is my goal, too formidable is my foe Why did I start something I can't finish Was this a noble quest or just a hopeless wish I wish I knew, I have never felt so blue