The shadow and the light

A black shadow hangs over me It just won't go away It tells me everything I do is wrong I try to reason, explain myself Just like I've always done I'm doing my best with the hand I got But the shadow doesn't care about my woes It lays waiting in the dark ready for the time I slip and fall Once I saw a pretty girl Her eyes were full of need A void so deep I could fall endlesly But as I fell I saw myself A discarded empty shell It was my own hurt she was setting free And the pain has always been inside me A pain so great and so deep that I just can't let myself begin to feel So the shadow lies there waiting And i'm playing hide and seek Living in my world of fantasy A crack breaks open every now and then and I can see I still have to face everything that's real Someday I will face everything that's real But I'm stuck holding on Hiding both from the shadow and the light