Why Can't i be happy?

Have you ever felt like your excluded Like your never gonna feel included I was never the main kid Everyone ignored my like i was stupid Everyone just nod and moved on In primary had bare friends Now where are they It's just me myself and i No word of alie i kinda wanna die Used to be out there now i'm kinda shy Used have smiles but no tenderness Love or respect was shown Now I'm on my own Why can't I ever be happy I just feel down no smiles just frownz No smiles comes to my face Even the things that give me happiness and grace Oh I love you mother, oh I love you sister I'm running from a smiles ive got a blister Life is tricky like a game of twister Excuse me mister i see your a trickster I want a plate of smiles for dinner I'm not yung like a filly but a chunkz of love Would set me off so no one posts a flying dove One thing I don't want is clout if I go I guess it goes to show People hate you until they can use you for a view Don't care always rated you a two I was happy one day then it flipped I wasn't tricked, kicked or whipped I just suddenly couldn't read Myself like a manuscript It's like I have all the words But no alphabetic script Why can't I ever be happy I feel like a piece of shit I wanna be severe But I can't reason it None of my pieces fit 1 part loves one part cares The other one hides and wants to close their eyes Private life is the way to go Real ones love you Ain't it funny how real Always end up turning fake I spit all real bars But I still get hate Show no hate I can same I'm blessed I can say i'm broken All together That a blessed broken heart Oh why why why Try and show love And ry and show no hate Show my blessed broken heart Show the world what i can do But no one no one no one Seems to understand What i'm tryna get across Always try and get my tics in school But i just bare cross Why cant no fuckin teacher see That i struggle and wanna go float away in the sea Why cant they teach us The basic fundamentals Of happiness Right my wrongings I put upon all the people I love and care about today I guess it goes to show People say they'll always be there for you People will say there real But secretly they'll just wanna come stab you in the back at a later date Trust me, having bare friends is overrated Keep that one real one and keep them forever Keep your real ones Then maybe one day I'll be able to be fuckin happy