Sideways

I know the feeling I wrote the feeling It hurts so much I know you're feeling Just what I'm feeling It hurts so much But this time I don't wanna touch something That's gonna burn me 'Cause she's in my dreams now Like she's tryna haunt me Doc thinks I can get up now Try and kick the sertraline This year I've been diggin' deep To find out what's been killin' me but Maybe I'll learn from the things That I don't know And if I f*ck it all up I'll stay responsible And If I earned all the shit I've been swimming in I might just f*ck it all up And then begin again But this time I know There's something I'm repressing I feel it all inside But this time I know This something needs addressing I feel it going sideways Sideways, yeah I know the reason I am the reason It hurts so much I know you're seeing another version So I won't touch But this time I don't wanna hold someone That's gonna burn me 'Cause she's in my bed now I think she's in love with me Doc thinks I can get up now Try and kick the sertraline This year I've been diggin' deep To find out what's been killin' me but Maybe I'll learn from the things That I don't know And if I f*ck it all up I'll stay responsible And If I earned all the shit I've been swimming in I might just f*ck it all up And then begin again But this time I know There's something I'm repressing I feel it all inside But this time I know This something needs addressing I feel it going sideways Sideways, yeah Sideways, yeah These broken wings won't fly It's fallen on it's side Too drunk to even care Too high to even try