I Hope This Feeling Doesn't Last

Sometimes my fingertips arent good enough Textures feel better when i brush em against my lips And i prefer my tea in the summer In air conditioned rooms where the heat and humidity escapes me I think i see the world a little differently Train tracks and jet packs are the soundtrack of my dreams I'm a little too affected by what i see on tv My friends hang on my wall to remind me That i am a subject of humanity A chapter of reality And i'm still tryna wrap my head around it I've told my friends i dont think i'll make it to 30 I'm not suicidal i just dont think it exists I have this problem where if i cant imagine it i wont do it And sorry mum but i cant imagine having kids Oh i think i see things differently The best thing about that kiss was the look on his face And the best wine i've ever had was a four dollar bottle of gossips But i play board games with my friends and they remind me that i Am subject to them loving me Am a chapter in our legacy And i'm still tryna wrap my head around it I dont know why people live And at this point i'm too scared to ask Too many nights of thinking about death I hope this feeling doesnt last I dont know why people live And at this point i'm too scared to ask Too many nights staring at the ceiling I hope this feeling doesnt last I hope this feeling doesnt last