broken record

How is fair that you've moved on so easily When I still think you're just coming right back for me Your hand in my hair, it sits on my back And I get heartburn when I think about that Now my skin doesn't fit right anymore There's nausea in my throat and I just want to shed it all Start a new life, find a new body If I was skinnier would you have wanted me? Cus I try to sleep at night Then you get loud I try to shut it out, then I remember you Touching my leg, kissing my neck, reminding me of everything that I've never had Now I can't sleep at night because you took it back Now I'm missing you cus I won't see you tomorrow I won't walk down those stairs and be heading right for you I'll hide in my best friend's house I think I'm a broken record now Cus you changed something about me last week And now we can't carry on being the friends that we used to be Everything's changed and I just feel sick I'm pinching my skin so I feel better than this Cus I just can't sleep at night With a pit in my chest I dreamt that you chose me that night Then I woke up I'm not the first on the list, or even the second I've fallen down on all of your female relationships And I don't think we can go back from this Close my eyes I'm shutting the door Imagining not living in America anymore I'll probably never see you again And you were so desperate just to remain friends Weeks will go by and you won't reach out You think you're being nice but I just want to shout And I know you're not cruel but why lead me along I know we were drunk but you said you felt this way for a while Why will I never just be good enough for you? You're too busy to hang out, I don't think you really want to Now I can't sleep at night Now I can't sleep at night Now I can't sleep at night If I was smaller would you have wanted me?