curious

It doesn't hurt so much anymore Think I'm learning how to swallow It still goes down with a nasty aftertaste It's still something I've got to work on Trying to declaw myself From our favourite conversations How the world could be ending all at once And you'd just always say the right thing But you'll never be as curious as I wanted You'll never have the urge to ask me better questions You have no desire to know me fully It's like pulling teeth with you Screaming just acknowledge me You'll never be the person that you once were You'll never be as interested as you were in September You'll always be my villain and my saviour at once While I sit back in your memories covered by the dust Think the distance was good for me Even if it felt like dying Cause now I know how little I mean to you And how you flourished, while I survived it Cus you'll never be as curious as I wanted You'll never have the urge to ask me better questions You have no desire to know me fully It's like pulling teeth with you Screaming just acknowledge me You'll never be the person that you once were You'll never be as interested as you were in September You'll always be my villain and my saviour at once While I sit back in your memories covered by the dust And I'll always just be your disappointment Cause I could never let it go But to you it was casual And every time I leave you I still feel the ache Of something that'll never fully heal, and I'll always remember the break