don't leave

Once upon a time I had it all Friendships made of steel and a person I called home One day I woke up all alone With no one there for me and nobody I could call How did this even happen? Was it something I said? I just want to be a friend And you could always count on me to be there But when I needed you, you chose to reroute And i'm scared, that I will never have that again I'm not prepared to let somebody new in Time and time again i've lost myself Relying on somebody else to fix my mental health Dependency can only do so well Before you are unable to be all by yourself How could this even happen? I used to be fine but I grew up so deprived Of love and understanding my emotions And all that I knew was to rely on you So i'm scared that I won't find a way to deal with it I'm not prepared to let somebody new in I've tried and tried again but I ain't getting nowhere And i'm lonelier now than i've ever been So please, don't leave