Doubts

Well I have tried too many times left to count My friends tell me That it's time to speak out But they don't have what it is to keep me calm Is it wrong to have a feeling like this, be so strong? I must, I must be fooling myself To think this way when I know well That there is someone who's there for me Even when I can't see through it, through my doubts Well I don't have- there's no word to calm my nerves Everything around me seems cloudy Jaded, Save this poor heart from drowning Can anybody hear me? Maybe this is just the way I am Maybe I just missed out on some teachings Maybe if I feel some love again, maybe then I'll begin healing I just want someone to blame Maybe there's no one to blame But how can I explain it, these days just not changing I must, I must be fooling myself To think this way when I know well That there is someone who's there for me Even when I can't see through it, through my doubt