Last Breath Before I Close My Eyes

On the metro up at 2am but you're the only thing on my mind In a city as big as this why's your love so hard to find? Faces long as the train rolls on, don't worry I'll be just fine I think about all the things I never said as I down another bottle of wine The lights dim low as the curtain closes on your washed out face My lungs collapse as I try to shout, you're the only reason I'm still sane But now I'm running out of time to tell you That nothing's ever gonna change I'm running out of time to love you Even though I make too many mistakes I'm running out of time to make things right I'm running out of words to say I'm running out of patience every day Girl, I don't know why I stay But I stay Stumbling my way down to Lexington sweating a fever that doesn't exist In a daze, barely breathing, I dream of that sensation on my lips Honking horns and howling wolves, I fear I don't know what to believe I'm blacking out as I scream and shout I hear it echo down the street Inside our bodies there's a constant war you know my hearts already bleeding You know I hate it when I feel ignored by every single person I'm seeing But now I'm running out of time to tell you That nothing's ever gonna change I'm running out of time to love you Even though I make too many mistakes I'm running out of time to make things right I'm running out of words to say I'm running out of patience every day Girl, I don't know why I stay But I stay I stay For the moment So you can realize I won't let go I just want you more Hell won't be so bad if you're the one holding my hand Oh my God Do You even listen? Oh I'm gasping for air Why am I so scared I'm losing myself to my religion I'm praying to God so that I can fit in I love my mom more than I love myself Don't wanna live life like anybody else I'm losing myself to my religion I'm praying to God so that I can fit in I love my mom more than I love myself Don't wanna live life like anybody else Ooooh Oooh-oh-ooooooh Oooh-ooh-oh-oooh Oooh-ooh-ooh-oooooh Oooooh Oooh-oh-ooooh Oh-oh-ooooh-ooh Ooh-oh-oooohh I'm losing myself to my religion I'm praying to God so that I can fit in I love my mom more than I love myself Don't wanna live life like anybody else I'm losing myself to my religion I'm praying to God so that I can fit in I love my mom more than I love myself Don't wanna live life like anybody else I'm losing myself to my religion I'm praying to God so that I can fit in I love my mom more than anyone else I'm just tryna become the best version of myself