A Suno Session (feat. Selena Nyx)

2019, I became a dad for the first time Thought the joy would cancel out the grind, but my boss left Loyalty thrown aside, four years of sweat and I got left to slide Scarlet letters on my chest like a badge of shame Struggled to move forward, but they dirty my name My best friend, my son's godfather turned his back Chased my spot, knowing I had no track Damn, you felt that Mom said life was heavy, but she forgot my load Uncle vanished too, left me on this lonely road Check to check, debt pile sky high Paula's love kept me steady, but I can't deny Felt like I failed her like I failed me This weight is too much, but I can't let it be Still showing up, mask on my face Talking to you, trying to find some grace Heavy heart Can you hear me now? My story untold All these scars, all this pain, it's taking a toll I'm trying to find the light, but the dark's so loud In this therapy session, I'm just speaking out loud Can you hear me now? My story untold All these scars, all this pain, it's taking a toll I'm trying to find the light, but the dark's so loud In this therapy session, I'm just speaking out loud 2020, my father's chest turned cold I tried to save him, but my grip couldn't hold Last one to see him alive, that weight's a chain I still hear the silence, still feel the blame Couldn't bounce back, career stuck in limbo Spent years in the dark, watching my dreams go Debt swallowed me whole, couldn't be the man But I'm raising two boys, doing the best I can Second son came, thought life would mend But the pressure doubled, it never seems to end Paula's patience wearing thin, I can see it in her eyes Trying to be a good husband, but I'm drowning in lies Can you hear me now? My story untold All these scars, all this pain, it's taking a toll All these scars, all this pain, it's taking a toll I'm trying to find the light, but the dark's so loud In this therapy session, I'm just speaking out loud 2023 and I'm still fighting this storm Friends turn foes, loyalty deformed A mentor lied, stabbed me in the back Took what was mine, left me off the track Mom's pain bleeds into every word she speaks While I'm trying to carry a load, she thinks it's weak Uncle's ghost haunts the space where love should be Family ties frayed, family I'm talking to you now, cause who else gon' care Wife sees my struggles, but I can't always share Trying to be a rock, but I'm crumbling inside Two boys watching, I can't let them see me slide This therapy's my refuge, my chance to breathe Tired of the mask, the lies I weave Faith in myself is all I've got left No God, no savior, just steps toward my best One step at a time, can't build when I'm built I'm not my failures, I'm more than my pain Every scar, every loss is fuel for my game Two boys need a father, a wife needs a man I'm rebuilding my soul piece by piece, hand by hand Gotta rebuild Can you hear me now, my story untold All these scars, all this pain, it's taking a toll I'm trying to find the light, but the dark's so loud In this therapy session, I'm just speaking out loud Just listen, speak the truth So dark, that's me A father, a husband, a son, a man Try to make sense of a world that don't make sense But I'm still here, still fighting, still building My boys deserve better, my wife deserves better And I'll get there, one session at a time One step at a time We ain't done yet, still moving forward