Fighting my Feelings

Can I speak my peace Spending my time you know just telling my story man Life ups and downs we just gotta stay strong yall it's that simple It's that simple you know At seventeen I was weak in the knees Steady crying everyday in sheets Nobody cared about little owe me That's how I felt but really I pushed everyone away With the angry built up from not having a father figure Maybe I could pull the trigger end of all my feelings Maybe I could f*ck the pain away my penicillin Maybe I could pull doubles at mc ds buy new sneaks to show off neglecting all my needs Looking back at it I'm so surprised I didn't resort to cutting myself like the broads did when I tried leaving Threats of harming themselves if I go that's deceiving We'll fight and we argue but I'm the only reason Just put the blame on me and leave me the f*ck alone If I'm so bad then keep walking I can't condone People like you in crazy world I thought I would never find love until I met god Fighting my feelings I can't hide it When you come through I get excited That different feeling when we're vibing A perfect pair and you designed it I get excited Won't you come through boo you're invited That different feeling when we're vibing A perfect pair and god designed it What a pleasant surprise you came through when I wanted to die Rock bottom found out the had music kept me alive Survives guilt got feeling like why me Why not the others who resemble I Lost in a world where they're eating off hatred I can't say the same today cuz I don't take life for granted Everyday we wake another chance for repentance pray forgiveness And appreciate the small things nigga Saint and sinner Yin and Yang can't run my nigga this is life Ups and downs made me my nigga The flesh show that shit who's in charge my nigga You are blessed it's a test prevail Unity be god Eleven elements combined and made consciousness The universe sees our flaws love us for who we are Reminds me of my daughter The purest form close to our sun true love spoke from Fighting my feelings I can't hide it When you come through I get excited That different feeling when we're vibing A perfect pair and you designed it I get excited Won't you come through boo you're invited That different feeling when we're vibing A perfect pair and god designed it Totality everything Life to me means every thing consider me