Jaded

Sitting in my room watch the fan go round You know in this wine that I'm gonna drown I'm losing it here I'm covered in my tears I'm inside of my head I'm battling my fears I'm doubting myself I could've used your help I'm full of this hate Stuck inside of my place HOW COULD I FALL SO FAR I'm jaded Tapping out and just fading Folding my hand, thought we made it But now I see I'm just hated You don't call me like you used to Left me with all I've been through Wish I could ask what did I do But we both know I knew WRONG Back and forth those words just keep on ringing in my head The days I can't get out of bed My thoughts fill me with nothing but dread I'm not even out of my mind, I'm just mindless Blindly trying to change myself But I need some help I delete my health Reaching for the shelf Where I keep my good times I was in my prime Always on the dime And You can't see this other side of me that I was trying to hide But you see between the lines Through me in my cage Facedown, where I stay Save me from myself pray I need a lullaby For all the nights that I cry Valley of Ashes, I said goodbye, to my pride And my greed I don't know, what I need All this pain, that I see I'm just leaving stains on my legacy What am I meant to be I don't know but God only knows IT'S NOT ME I'm jaded Tapping out and just fading Folding my hand, thought we made it But now I see I'm just hated You don't call me like you used to Left me with all I've been through Wish I could ask what did I do But we both know I knew