Burdens

It's all your fault If I told you that my back to the wall and you never called me Oh my God How you watching over me and never heal me you just stalking Evidence Evidence exceeds in the blood of a liar walking through fire now he's Hurting lord You gonna save me or are you just gonna watch Check the watch Said It's all your fault I been facing all my demons alone I called ya phone said I'm on hold forever where did you go Why can't you stay? Cause lately these burdens have torn my spirits away I doubt that you stay So when the days come that you hate what you see I just pray you tell me so I know this just hell at my feet I've been to Heaven in dreams And hell in my eyes So when ask me why I lie awake my thoughts just race I can't erase my past Past actions keep me blindsided am I blindfolded or is God trying Or is God dying? He forget about me? Questions on this quest should I request an answer from you directly I'm sick of just reading the scriptures These just the thoughts that would float in my headaches That's right when I pick up a pencil Use this utensil To paint a picture that will save you all I'm elated should this paper call Crazy how paper with faces on it is worth more than your life Crazy how they want us dead but we standing like bitch we alive With pride Wakanda forever the guide Guide me To the life with no irony A life that's inspiring A life that I'd like to just see as a lightning strike A life without metaphors Open up Heavens' doors Can't you see the fallen ones Torturing all of us Killing me softly How can I stop I just like to watch it Killing me slowly My soul is in love with the Roses My heart wants to stay in a box I'm feeling like everything's closing in Leaving my body to rot Sending my mind into thoughts Sending my mind into lock down Up when you give me the call But I still think it's your fault It's all your fault I been facing all my demons alone I called ya phone said I'm on hold forever where did you go Why can't you stay? Cause lately these burdens have torn my spirits away (I doubt that you stay) This is an untitled message to God Although I blame you I still need your love Putting everyone above myself just like Jesus did with his 12 No limit to the burdens I'd carry Which scares me.