Edge Of Insanity

I'll run away from the edge of insanity Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity Try to think straight but my mind has polarity Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me I'm feeling anxious so please no don't stare at me I'm talking straight you don't like my vulgarity Don't mean to curse but no it's fucking part of me Say it's okay but you look at me hardly I ain't been this tied up in a second Work to get my heart rate down but mind is never resting Feeling like I'm losing everybody say I'm winning I ain't crazy yet but know it's fucking in my vision My reality's in waviness I weirdly wanna savor this I usually tend to aim and miss And always end up throwing fits I look in my distorted mirror Voice in my head I can't hear her Feet are small and head is bigger I could paint a vivid picture Seeing double like your sipping liquor Fog around you like your cig is with ya And a swisher Emotional dysregulation Think you're fine but you're mistaken Speaking but my eyes are vacant Never know my point of breaking Till it's broken The weed I smoke is potent I'm posing while they pointing Say I hope that you're enjoying I'm floating like I'm buoyant But these people all annoying They hoping that you're holding Lots a cash like you important But you ain't shit but a stoner with anxiety You ain't gonna be nothing else As hard as you try to be Maybe I should realize that I'm The only one trying me So stop acting like these problems They just be finding me I'm finally Making realizations Things that never quite made sense to me Like math equations And I always wanted answers because I'm impatient But now that I'm getting somewhere It was worth the waiting I'll run away from the edge of insanity Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity Try to think straight but my mind has polarity Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me Say I need help but no I ain't no charity Want me to change but no I do not care to be Something I'm not yeah I like living carelessly You not like me we don't got similarities I ain't always been this fucking nervous Used to be myself and not care much bout what the world is But then shit started coming to the surface Now I struggle just to find my inner self and what my worth is It ain't always picture perfect Pour a glass cuz I deserve it I reflect against the surface Just to try to find my purpose Like a phone I'm out of service I don't got none more And now I'm drunk And I'm wondering what I called for This shit it hurts Like your fingers in a car door I'm at my worst Say I'm okay but I'm not sure It'd be a first If you didn't think I'm lying What the f*ck you think I'm hiding I'm not trying to be violent Turning blue just like I'm violet Cuz I said f*ck air Need that THC the O2 just don't compare They say believe in me but I really just don't care They may be onto me but I still be unaware The way y'all waking up so peacefully is unfair I don't dare Take that for granted Wanna sleep But I can't stand it Honestly I cannot manage Waking up So empty handed Light me up Just like that backwood Tell me sum To make me feel good Even if you're really lying Please just try your best to hide it I'll run away from the edge of insanity Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity Try to think straight but my mind has polarity Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me