Passing By

I've been slacking on my rapping Cuz anxiety's been hacking at my mental Shake so much I can't lift up the pencil Passing out and waking up in hell though I can't remember why Happens all the time I feel like I'm blind To myself To my problems and my health Tryna find my inner peace But It's really hard to seek When I can't eat or sleep And I know I'm not weak But these thoughts just repeat I'm tryna slow them down But they always seem to show up when no ones around And I'm hoping I don't blow up at a little sound Of a pin drop And I swear to god I'll tell you when this shit stops Yeah For now I'm just held by scotch tape Put a few layers and I hope it don't break Pack another bowl let me smoke for fucks sake I need a smoke break I lost my mind Up in the clouds Never find it now Never coming down I left my thoughts Up in the sky Now I just watch Time passing by Ripping the bong think I should stop some Time but I ain't gonna stop none I just keep ripping the shit I keep packing the bowl I keep lighting it up I keep smoking it all cuz PTSD Got me needing weed And feeling empty Can't succeed So no don't tell me Like the shell of who I used to be Obsessed with all the scrutiny And all this shit so new to me So I'll just sit there blank And watch the people round me question Why my words are sounding fake I don't got no answers mentioned I'm off in a new dimension I lost my mind Up in the clouds Never find it now Never coming down I left my thoughts Up in the sky Now I just watch Time passing by