The Change Interlude

Today, I can't handle it I pray, tell my family "Escape, I can manage that" This the type of shit I'd say behind the camera's back Depression's such a villainous state I'm sick of this pain, keep numbing the brain Decisions I wish I could retake I'm sick of the fakes, keep running away These people they take my heart then they break it, Something that cannot be repaid Now that I'm feeling this way It's obvious that things will not be the same It's odd because they try and hop on my wave This blood in my veins its presence is faint If only the world could see races as paint And treat everyone as a saint this world would be changed I'm not playing games Think I need some time to unwind free me from my ties, now it's me time Rollin' up the vine keeps my peace of mind There's a reason why the past is put behind Otherwise you would be living in a lie because now is the time The present that gives each day that we live, but the real question is What are we gunna make of it? Oasis's and basic shit, if that's all you're about then maybe it simply is time to quit For me? I spit, to show my lens To pay my debts To show the rest That I'm the zest That owes his prose that rose to those who doze In peace From disease they're free My plea is weak For them I seek to be a G Who will carry his family And best believe that days like these Will come again, don't need a hand that lends So at every day's end, mind on the dividends With it might cop a Benz Wealth comes at your own expense, I done made my own advance In fact, I lost a lot before I got a bands till don't got lots of friends I'm just tryna find my ends for this Swear to God I'd kill for this Didn't pop no pill for this Tuned into my feels for this Proving that I'm real with this, paying all my bills with this Tellin' all my spiels with this, changed up took this serious I can't f*ck with weariness except when I'm delirious Stay curious, have a myriad of experience But mysterious I stay 'Cause I still can feel precarious Hilarious, I know Though, it's funny how I kill this shit, I cherish it, let's go I'm fearless, so I'm goin all in and if you dishonor this then let's hear your argument On my a scholar shit If I'm passionate imma holler it When I say that imma slaughter it, imma do it all for bliss When you've fallen back please understand this When you find your path please don't stop at a cliff Stay up on your toes never know when shit can switch Had to change quick Had to change quick Had to change quick Had to change quick Had to change quick Had to change quick Cha-ange quick