Perennial Pain

I had to sit down rearrange my thoughts My circle is growing small it's like I have no friends The road less traveled is the one I'ma take So Next time we meet, don't ask me how long it'll take For me to blow up Hard-work is thrown out as soon as clout come in Damn does it make sense I used to have alot of motivation while doing this Now I'm reminiscing to a time that I used to smile Perennial pain you can feel it in every line It's like I'm in denial But, I shove it aside They rooting for you but as soon as your tree starts to grow The green in envy appears on the show Mama told me you reap what you sow That's why I'm always low key calculating on my goals Till I become a G.O.A.T I'll always keep it on the low Envy greed deception It comes with the role My shoes too big So don't try to step in I can do what you do Even when I'm asleep But you trying to do what I do You fail defeat This is blood sweat and tears And it don't come cheap Invested a lot of time Just to be this big Manifested all my shine And it came from within So please show me how to do it Coz I'm sick of watching time fly Please show me how to do it Coz I'm sick of the sidelines Please show me how to do it Coz I'm sick of waiting why lie I mean it's just the sixth sense I'm always paranoid Somehow it don't make sense I'm scared of failure but my talent so immense I have the answers but I'm scared of the test Shit Yeah You know sometimes it just feels like this pain is never ending It feels like you are caught up in this huge bubble of pain And there's no getting out Coz every time you make one step forward it feels like you're making Two steps backwards And there's actually no light at the end of the tunnel It's just pure darkness And you're trying to fight it with all your soul But it feels like you're trapped in this cage and there's no getting out Although deep down you know it will end Coz your intuition is telling you it will end But it feels like it won't I had to sit down rearrange my thoughts Dreaming long term how I'll become a boss Coz if this music fails I will have taken a loss And I won't know how to recover from the pain it caused Damn to keep it real Rap is all I've known I've worked my ass off and I still don't have the throne But is it all in my head I overthink a lot The future I dread is where I flop So I sleep one eye open till I get to the top Every day I'm hoping that I get my shot And show you what I'm made of coz my talent is raw Like a Jehovah witness I'll go knocking on doors If opportunity don't come I'll go looking for sure And I'm sure I'll find it coz that's for sure It's my birth right and I gotta get it for sure It's my birth right and I gotta have it for sure