Time To Myself

Please, need time to myself I'm living deep in hell Sometimes I think about the people I used to go to school with They look at me now, thinking how did this man do this I downplay it, saying this ain't really crazy Went from one hundred and 10 to 90 kg Not wasting my time, that ain't that easy But why do I feel like the world they still hate me I don't wanna yell like a grown up baby But I don't wanna walk into war with no gun and cry for safety Back track a few years ago I got a girlfriend She wasted my time, I wasn't learning How to look after myself without another person All my problems, after we broke up, they would worsen Leading to drugs The money it wasted my life People lookin down in strife They need to wake up They need to face the Challenge that they've been placed on Served up by nature They forget now and be my friend later It's too late like Darth Vader You're not my friend just an invader It seems like your behaviors Has let you turn into a hater Sit back in your chair, you've become a stranger I'm losing my self-worth to these drugs Please, need time to myself I'm living deep in hell Please don't know where to go It's like I'm lost and can't grow Drugs are a mystery, part of history There's no pro or con sheet Come on, you got to get down on the ground and bow on to your knee Forget god, these drugs are what you worship now You think I'm getting angry Yeah that's right, you've forsaken your spiritual life Say goodbye to future kids and your wife All these lyrical words add meaning and cleaning to your critical mind Critical mind Critical mind How do I get out of these physics of mine yea, Physics of mine Physics of mine Can I get off of this feeling in time before I'm committed by the crime Left to rot in the grime Sometimes I can rap fast Until enough time has passed I can think of the people I can outlast As much as I can be an outcast I would love to spit on a podcast Can you put me on so I can rant past All the people that are part of my past And they get scary and they think I harassed It ain't the tooth fairy, I just amassed The inner demons that I surpassed over the last two years fairly I'm not the cast from that gassed conjuring series If I ever get punched in the kidneys Or there's illnesses coming down my chimneys I won't blame it on those devil theories I won't let those rumor's come near me I won't destroy the progress I have so easy In fact, should I forget that period of my life completely No I shouldn't! Mistakes got me there Don't you dare tell me the devil left me there If he exists, there's excuses for everybody everywhere Take responsibility if you wanna make repairs Please, need time to myself I'm living deep in hell Please don't know where to go It's like I'm lost and can't grow Please Please Save me from this hell