Under my Bed

Don't want to see the day No I am not okay Don't want to see the night Swear I feel that I died Don't want to steer this ship over this fucking tide I'd rather let it sink why should I even try Oh did I stutter, did I blink eye did not shutter Fucker am I vulgar, I just make my music therapeutic There's some beauty in my suffer how I wonder, in my cluster In my realm, sunny sky neverland only thunder Asking for forgiveness Mother, got this illness Suffer, with this sickness Getting tougher by the minute I drew up this image in my head Portrait in my head You left when I slept, the tears I did not wept The memories I kept, kept them hid under my bed Remember what I said, I forgot it need my meds And my head above mountains, nothing I do excites me This life given take it back, wish I could be more grateful But my faith fold, got no faith tho Haven't felt the sun on my face whoah Used to go to church but I strayed oh Satan in my head, ain't afraid tho That's a childish play nothing nuevo Pick up all your legos, and the playdough He been staying for a minute, where my savior Where my savior They say, you work in mysterious ways But too much has happened for my fucking brain Seeking remedies, fucking numb the pain can't maintain Bottled up all the tears, never let it rain Sitting recollecting up all the tears, that I shed in vain I remain, alone with my thoughts, and the pain this is my domain Cursed be the name of the forgotten one Cursed to roam earth, picked from birth now the fallen one Tortured constantly, nobody understands His own enemy, dreadfully self resents Opposite of blessed he was left to his own demise Always fucking stressed, not expressed to the naked eye Damned with the rest, all will fall nothing left Not a stone upon a stone, all the souls with no flesh You left when I slept, the tears I did not wept The memories I kept, kept them hid under my bed Remember what I said, I forgot it need my meds And my head above mountains, nothing I do excites me Don't know, what I feel inside Death is, always on my mind But I find in these rhymes I confine I can find Little peace in the heavens I'm in hell all time I'd rather be asleep I don't want be awake Why am I alive, created by mistake Debated by the voices incubated in my head Came to the conclusion I am just a waste of space Maybe it's my fault Baby it's my fault You can blame me it's my fault Like the night we all fall