Everything's Fine

I been reflectin While goin through thangs Emotions heavy All over the place Started that letter that I never sent Only to realize That I don't forgive As easily As I thought that I did With that being said Apologies for mistakes that I made Hearts that I broke From games that I played Feelings can flee A lot can change In the span of a year or two See the growth from the pain Sometimes we need that space To see with a clearer view Yo I admit it I was immature and ego trippin Thought I knew better But apparently I didn't Tryin to be a playa like pops did it Gotta move outside the Box That you supposed to fit in Momma warned me bout it I didn't listen Hard-headed In a world of my own I fought so hard to forget it Till I finally did At least I thought was the case Until my trauma got triggered Yo I'm Tryin to do better It's hard to be unaffected When u got so much invested Need a shift in my perspective How many followers you got Nah Where you leading them too That's a better question Competing forces Movin in different directions Humility vs being thirsty and extra See that's quite the dilemma And oftentimes find myself In the center And shuttin off Is my defense mechanism Sometime easier To just not deal with it I'm Tryin to manage my healin So I don't pass these bad habits To my future children Before the world burdens They optimism They got they own lessons to learn I'm tryin to do it different Yo I be thinkin the worse, everything feel Like the endin Guess you gotta destroy Before you can build again Everything's Fine