Falling

I can't lie I know I have the heart of a soldier That's why I do the things I do Why I won't quit Just go on and on through All the bullshit Even when it's all falling apart But you know what F*ck it I'm feeling angry with five dollars to my name I'm out of options and I'm trying not to fade away Or fall astray I don't know what else to fucking say All I know is that I'm desperate for another way I'm all fucked up with nothing to show for it One more shot and I'm out of the door for it All I do is kill me so that I can survive So what f*ck I'm getting faded My heart is racing Taking me higher Taking me higher Drunk on the poison I'm hearing voices Taking me higher Taking me higher I cheated on my girl and now she don't trust me I keep fucking up with everyone who says they love me I never stop while Im ahead so I'm unlucky I don't know what's wrong me so no don't touch me Voices in my head Choices on my mind Every time I ran away to leave it all behind I Leave it all in the past just to have it all rewind Never thought I'd have to watch as I'm falling out of line Lost and I'm running in circles just to escape Cross with the devil that live inside of my brain To stop what I'm doing again, I'm running away I thought I was early but really I'm running late The clocks ticking my minds tripping A nice feeling of life slipping I just missed it I was fucking dead but I'm alive again Let that sink in I'm getting faded My heart is racing Taking me higher Taking me higher Drunk on the poison I'm hearing voices Taking me higher Taking me higher I can't lie I know I have the heart of a soldier That's why I do the things I do Why I don't quit Just go on and on through All the bullshit Even when it's all falling apart But you know what F*ck it