Losing My Life

I dont dream when I sleep Ive never been a dreamer And these tears on my lips Never tasted sweeter Wanna drown it all beneath Bumping music on the speaker Tryna fight my pain away But Ive only been getting deeper Only mistaken about The way I saw the future Never thought id ever fail Now my life is losing humor Trying to fit in with the crowd Like Im following a rumor Ive been living here for years But I still feel like an intruder Im living life period Im always certain I block emotion But I can still feel a disturbance Feel like Im losing my life But I stay calm up on the surface Living in the worl But I still havent found my purpose Feeling nervous Maybe Im just walking circles I fight and I fight But I keep getting evil urges What the hell is going on I keep swerving like Im nervous Every day I make effort But every night Im feeling worthless I dont know what imma do I feel like Im gonna lose My life I feel like Im losing my life I dont know what imma do I feel like Im gonna lose My life I feel like Im losing my life My life was not What I expected to be No I never did What was expected of me I know I fell off I think I fell too hard Cuz Im reminded every day When I look at my scars Like every single struggle I fought Cut into my heart Before I knew it My character was already lost Doing street hustle business Thought Id never get caught Ducking under bridges quick To run away from the cops Living quick and real young But Id be feeling older But I cant even trust a person I keep checking my shoulder Need to slow down So I could breathe And anchor my grip Cuz at night I barely get by I want to just quit And sail ship Forget this Ill never be free Even when I sail away Im falling into the deep Whats the point of even trying When I cant even sleep If youe really there God Then bring me back to my feet I dont know what imma do I feel like Im gonna lose My life I feel like Im losing my life I dont know what imma do I feel like Im gonna lose My life I feel like Im losing my life Defeated by the struggle Im tricked by the deceiver My strength is running low And everyday Im getting weaker Burying my faults Like Im using a concealer Ive never been a devil But Ive never been a preacher Only trying to reach you Hit you so I can teach you Not trying to impeach you Look at the bigger picture Im trying to instill in you faith To take with you Im know that Im poor But I aint ever been richer Learned from the scripture Had to learn the shit fast Cuz my life is always burning away It dont last Never thought Id be alive Or kicking today After every single time I almost called it day Its called faith The reason Im alive today Its my strength Keeping me aligned and brave Its not hate I know that imma be ok Its my fate To battle or just be enslaved Thats my faith I dont know what imma do I feel like Im gonna lose My life I feel like Im losing my life I dont know what imma do I feel like Im gonna lose My life I feel like Im losing my life