Find the Ninth

By now I’d count At least 8 years suffering So down, strung out I just want to live for something I hope that I Find a way to cope without Self-destruction But we see how that’s going My enemies are at the apex While I’m just a bottom feeder You say it’s only up from here I think I can get six feet deeper I always have my head in the clouds But I can’t seem to find the ninth You’ve got yours, where’s mine? What does it take? Can I even afford it? Must I trade my broken bones and bleed for it? Will I leave with a purpose? Can I rest with self-fulfillment? To you I’ll stop comparing I know I am meant for something. I always have my head in the clouds But I can’t seem to find the ninth You’ve got yours, where’s mine? To you, stop comparing Keep my feet beneath me This life won’t defeat me To you, stop comparing Keep my feet beneath me This life won’t defeat me Find my own cloud nine. I always have my head in the clouds But I can’t seem to find the ninth You’ve got yours, where’s mine? By now I’d count At least 8 years suffering So down, strung out I just want to live for something.