I don't deserve to feel this way

I'm so angry with myself yeah I'm so angry with myself Nah I try to help myself let it go I'm tired and it shows I'm tired of my future growing What my past has sewn I was built for poetry Not working till I'm dead All this progress that I'm making It's like pissing in the wind Once and for all Pour my heart into this world All I ever feel is that I'm never gone be good enough I hate that all I see Is what I've never done I hate that all you see Is what I should have done Honest Honest Honestly I wish I'd fall Honest Honest Honestly I wish I'd fall I try to help myself let it go I'm tired and it shows I'm tired of my future growing What my past has sewn I was built for poetry Not working till I'm dead All this progress that I'm making It's like pissing in the wind No I can't give up No I don't give a f*ck No You can't hang with me I don't accept no new friends You can even see the beast in me I can't pretend I won't hate myself For feeling like I'm never good enough Never good enough I let it go I let it go I let it go I let it go I let it go I let it go I let it go I let it go I let it go For my dreams For my faith For my love For the truth It's the truth I let it go All the hate All the hate All the hate Of myself I don't deserve to feel this way