The Funeral

Yeah I ain't living with depression, I'm living with death I ain't missed none of my shots, I'm missing the steps I ain't take none of your shots, I got me a vest I ain't dealing with respect, I'm healing neglect Missed my mama funeral, still got no regrets I could've showed up clean just for me to leave a mess I been going downhill since they laid my mom to rest And all the problems that she had, they live in my chest These days, funerals be family reunions If I die with depression, I let the shit consume me I know my mama proud of me, why I'm not proud Cause' I learned the difference from being used and called useless My auntie know that she wrong, still no apologies I put that shit in the past, that's where it's got to be For the sake of mama, I just let it be Because of you are, don't act like you did a lot for me I don't live with regrets, but they live in my head I need to learn to forgive more than I forget I need to humble some people, for some shit they did I need to learn how to love and teach it to my kids I learned that some times, changes come with some pain Blood ain't thicker than water, that shit all the same I only look back, just to see how far I've came I been losing thoughts, on this mutha fuckin airplane Now here we are at your mutha fuckin' funeral Everybody love you at the mutha fuckin' funeral All I see is fake love at this mutha fuckin' funeral Half these folks ain't see you 'til this mutha fuckin' funeral How your sister profit from this mutha fuckin' funeral Your daughter couldn't cry at your mutha fuckin' funeral Your son couldn't make it to your mutha fuckin' funeral But he on that FaceTime at this mutha fuckin' funeral And he ain't trying to cry at this mutha fuckin' funeral He just catching vibes at this mutha fuckin' funeral Listening to lies at this mutha fuckin' funeral Everybody crying at your mutha fuckin' funeral They all sharing good times at your funeral Wishing that they had more time then a funeral They talkin' bout' how much you use to smile before the funeral They ain't say this shit when you was alive and you was beautiful