Holding On

SSRIs in a bottle might just take em twice Know these pills kill me if I'm taking more than im prescribed Holding out for nothing see myself inside your fiery eyes See you burning from the pain only I provide I know this shits not pretty but im in it for the ride Seen a few friends taking risk and losing life It's a different life It's all a different lie Been buried in the sand n you don't know what that's like Memories got me in chokehold gasping for light Henny slowly lifts it I'll be drinking all night My family want me better cuz depression isn't nice They tell me see the doctor but that guy fucked me twice And I don't know just where to go Stepping like a baller But the money doesn't change im broke And i'm all alone ohh I been holding on for long If I didnt love you You'd have seen my name gone Rest in peace the soldiers we lost Rip the soldiers that didn't make it across I can't schedule when im sad My bros dont need another loss So I keep a brave face And give it what I got I give it what I got Can only give it what I got She told me please don't chat to me For a while until her boyfriends back overseas Maybe i should hit him up and tell him man were clapping cheeks But ion want the beef so ima keep clean Heavily sedated always need someone to save me If i learn of independence then im probably going crazy I dont seek the future cuz the past still haunts me daily I guess it's kinda scary that my future is a maybe look into my eyes girl try see what i see Hell will be frosty the day u try and cross me You don't want the smoke u can even bring your whole team I see past the act, a facade could never fool me I don't wanna lose it now I can't face the crowd Pressures getting heavy i might start to break down Head starts spinning everything gets loud And I don't know just where to go Stepping like a baller But the money doesn't change im broke And im all alone ohh I been holding on for long If I didnt love you You'd have seen my name gone Rest in peace the soldiers we lost Rip the soldiers that didnt make it across I cant schedule when Im sad My bros dont need another loss So I keep a brave face And give it what I got I give it what I got Can only give it what I got And I dont know just where to go Stepping like a baller But the money doesnt change im broke And im all alone ohh