Flatline (feat. Xander Lee)

Caught me off the oxy in a high I'm dying inside, it's keeping me alive Hoping maybe sleep will give me respite But it's only tortured dreams when Morpheus arrives I thought I loved you 'till I woke up I remember summer '16, chilling on your leather sofa I wish I never told you that I loved ya One of many blunders, I call that a faux pas Cold metal straight to the brain, I'm swimming in the moonshine Mistaking my tears for the rain Blue pill got me seeing red Red pill got me feeling blue But all the xanny in the world Can't help me to get over you Hurting me was just another pastime Thought I'd venture deeper but I capsize Suffocating, choking on the hash pipe Cocaine and my heart both training flat lines I'm just another druggie Want someone to love me Secondarily, f*ck me Marry me, drug me But I know I'm lucky if I ever reach the first one Next to everyone else, I always been the worst one I'm just tryna find that balance Between self love and being selfish So I gave myself to you But you tore it all in two, no, no, no Hurting me was just another pastime Thought I'd venture deeper but I capsize Suffocating, choking on the hash pipe Cocaine and my heart both training flat lines Years before I gain my composure Recognize that it's over Then I start to recover and heal Exposure washing me into the grave (The undertow is washing me away) I will not apologize for being blunt Why the f*ck did you decide to cut me off Tell me, why do I deserve to lose your trust At least just put down your front All your false indignation, I know it's contrived I hear your words quaver, you're lacking the spine Acknowledge my emotions, look me in the eyes And with all your conviction, tell me that you tried Hurting me was just another pastime Thought I'd venture deeper but I capsize Suffocating, choking on the hash pipe Cocaine and my heart both training flat lines Shawty gone bad Shawty gone, shawty gone bad Shawty gone bad Shawty, baby, no Do you need me now Know I'm around Know I'm around