Good & Bad (Interlude)

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and Teach my younger self all the lessons I never really learned I never really had anyone who was there for me in my childhood I didn't really have any friends My parents were unsupportive And it almost killed me But I never could have dreamed how much that would come to affect me in all my relationships And the end result was that I hurt a lot of people before I came to terms with it And I wish I'd turned things around sooner I don't know that it'll ever be possible for me to really be good, deep down The damage I caused, the pain I brought to others when I was young can never be undone So now I'm just stuck wondering whether it's even possible to come back from this Or if the lies I've spread and the hurt I've caused mean that I'm a bad person forever And I know it's stupid It's objectively dumb to get hung up on questions of legacy in this good versus bad, black or white way But if that question of whether I'm good or not has no clear answer, then I don't really know why I'm still here But, for better or worse, I am still here And I have no choice but to keep on keeping on Yknow?