Here's the First Thing You Should Know

Sleeping in my make-up, one more time Crying, dying, trying to pretend I'm fine, yeah Reaching for the purpose of this life I'm just surviving, dying, I don't feel alive So I I try to hide who I am Don't wanna say too much so I just pretend But I'm still a mess in the end You gotta help me to escape from my head So here's the first thing you should know 'bout me I almost died at the end of a rope Second thing you should know 'bout me I'm still fighting, trying to find a way to cope And I can't face my shame I only find myself to blame Before you take my hand, you got to know I'll do my best not to be the same Life almost ended at fifteen Felt like I had nothing in front of me All this time, I don't know how to believe That I'm worth something at all with all this pain that I bring 'Cause all I ever wanted was to give something back I'm sick of feeling like I'm just a slave to my past Tell me, right now, would you be okay if I left? Because sometimes I still feel like I'd be better off dead, oh I try to hide who I am Don't wanna say too much so I just pretend But I'm still a mess in the end You gotta help me to escape from my head So here's the first thing you should know 'bout me I almost died at the end of a rope Second thing you should know 'bout me I'm still fighting, trying to find a way to cope And I can't take this pain The evil voices in my brain Before you take my hand, you got to know I'll do my best not to be the same So here's the first thing you should know 'bout me I almost died at the end of a rope Second thing you should know 'bout me I'm still fighting, trying to find a way to cope To darkness, I'm a slave And so I lie, I serenade Before you take my hand, you got to know I'll do my best to try to change