Pathological (Who I Am)

I swear on my dead body that this sentence is a lie And everything I am is just meticulous disguise Designed to make me interesting like the kids that have their friends Because nobody loves me for being me, so it's better to pretend The things I say can get maniacal The word "liar" carved upon my skull Maybe it's something pathological But do you wanna know my secret? I don't know who I am Said I don't know who I am And nobody gives a damn When I'm crying out for help Ask me 'bout my issues, there's a lot (I'm damaged and you know it, baby) But my tongue just ties itself in knots (I'm trying not to show it, baby) I don't feel safe until the truth about my demons has been scrubbed from my response See, I gotta cover all my flaws Gotta seem so perfect no one ever Questions if I'm faking it or not 'Cause I I don't know who I am Said I don't know who I am And nobody gives a damn When I'm crying out for help I've been a liar from the start Makes you crazy 'cause I'm trying much too hard I gotta learn to drop my defenses And be truthful to myself Oh, yeah I really got to learn to love myself To keep up the facade, I draw a smile on my frown But if I slip for just one second, then it all comes crashing down Don't dwell on what I was, just try to rise above Through the push and shove, you know I save some love I save some love for me (I don't know who I am) 'Cause I I don't know who I am And nobody gives a damn When I'm crying out for help I've been a liar from the start Makes you crazy 'cause I'm trying much too hard I gotta learn to drop my defenses I gotta stop hiding my intentions I gotta see my failures like a lesson And be truthful to myself