Teenage Cancer

Maybe All that I am is a facade A stunted little child in the dark Approximating living through pretending Never tell truths, I always bend it But at the very least, I have to end this now Oh, yeah I travel so far just to find somebody Anyone who gives a damn about me Though everyone would be just fine without me High school is such a bore 'Cause my word don't mean a thing no more Maybe I can't change, but I knew for sure Couldn't stand to see you walk out that door So don't you dare believe a word I say I do it all to make you stay So I pretend I'm gonna die Just to see who cares at All the worst lies that I ever told You know I did it all just to bring you closer Teenage me never knew how to cope But now my life is over, everybody knows That I lied about the cancer I made up my own answers To the problem of being a burden My solution wasn't worth it Oh, such a good way to pity me When you're tricked into giving your sympathy Attention seeking ain't a sin to me If I died right now, no one's missing me, and I Can't see beyond the pain Just want someone to validate The way I feel, I say it's real Even if it's made up, I don't wanna deal, so Don't you dare believe a word I say I do it all to make you stay So I pretend I'm gonna die Just to see who cares at all No, no, no, no, no So I become a living lie Say it, and I start to fall Young and dumb, that's me You can't go back if you burn the bridge Popular is all I wanna be You understand that they won't forgive I was scared and all alone Deep down, you must know that you're to blame And I just want someone to hold You know that don't make it okay So don't you dare believe a word we say We do it all to make you stay So I pretend I'm gonna die Just to see who cares at all No, no, no, no, no So I become a living lie Say it, and I start to fall And only now do I see Maybe the cancer is me