Pedestal

It's been three years and counting And it kills me that I'll never understand Why I put you above everyone else You held so much power And it kills me that you never had to try My attention, my contentment, was wrapped around your finger tips It's so hard to erase those years when I wished I would disappear Now that I've left you I can see the corruption you forced onto me I put you so high on my pedestal But you burned that shit down With the matches you stole I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love You held me as I fell apart But now you're the reason I am scarred I never want to see you I wish I never loved you I think these past years have gotten to your head When I'm around you now I would rather be dead But at one point you were the reason I wanted to live You wanted nothing to do with me But I truly believed you'd make me happy Oh, how you made me blind to reality It's so hard to erase those years when I wished I would disappear Now that I've left you I can see the corruption you forced onto me I put you so high on my pedestal But you burned that shit down With the matches you stole I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love You held me as I fell apart But now you're the reason I am scarred I never want to see you I wish I never loved you You, you were my everything The reason that I smiled The reason that I lived All of my friends knew your name The amount of time I spoke of you I drove them all insane Tell me Was it all a lie? When you held my head against your chest And told me not to cry Now, I am growing up You are nothing but a conceded man that I used to love I put you so high on my pedestal But you burned that shit down With the matches you stole I can't stand behind a person who makes me feel undeserving of love You held me as I fell apart But now you're the reason I am scarred I never want to see you I wish I never loved you