the wall

I built this wall It took me lots of time And if i knock it down now I'm scared of what i'll find Inside myself I'm so fuckin' blind I see exactly what i want But this world's so far behind Like am i someone else? In a different time? Cause i'm searchin' for an answer But still askin' myself why Like am i good enough? Am i alright? Cause my hands are shakin' now And my stomach's gettin' tight It comes in in the night time And it gets me high It used to put me in the right mind And i don't know why Oh it fucked me up a thousand times Put the gun between my eyes Pray to God that i'd survive Cause i'm better now Than i was before I'm gettin' what i want But still always needing more Will i make it out? Am i too insecure? I put my feelings on a shelf But still feel them to my core It comes in in the night time And it gets me high It used to put me in the right mind And i don't know why Oh it fucked me up a thousand times Put the gun between my eyes Pray to God that i'd survive Maybe i should just go out Maybe i should settle down Maybe i could come around Maybe i'm alright for now And maybe i am just too proud Maybe i'm just to beaten down Maybe i should just figure out Why my heads so fuckin' loud It comes in in the night time And it gets me high It used to put me in the right mind And i don't know why Oh it fucked me up a thousand times Put the gun between my eyes Pray to God that i'd survive This war with myself This war with myself Cause i built this wall It took me lots of time And if i knock it down now I'm scared of what i'll find