Universes

i cant tell if its my heart or my brain. im manic and i know it’s just a state. something that i chose not to sedate. i just think better when it's late. i made something then i burned it, did it on purpose. i can't tell if it was worth it or if i deserve it. and i keep winning the game and it makes me feel more worthless. and i keep wandering off into different universes. you're somewhere else and the one of you i know is somewhere parallel. and i keep telling myself that this is not a hell and i’ll earn my happiness when i do something well. am i all alone when i fall asleep. wish i could save my bones from my circuitry. i'm a clone of me with my psychology. there’s no room for me in my reality. i rewind like i got the super 8 so i can binge watch all my mistakes. you'll never get me out of my way. i just think better when it’s late. you’re somewhere else. and the one of you i know is out there by themselves. and i keep telling myself that it is not a hell and the one of me who’s there still knows how to help. am i all alone when i fall asleep. wish i could save my bones from my circuitry. i'm a clone of me with my psychology. there’s no room for me in my reality. do we run parallel, or is my image that of someone else? do i believe this isn’t hell? cause i am hurting when i try to help. maybe we all get lost, maybe it’s in my blood. don’t think I’m ever gone. I’m simply losing touch. am i all alone when you fall asleep? it’s better not to taint your reality. broken record with my apologies. do you lose sleep just at the thought of me? am i all alone when i fall asleep. wish i could save my bones from my circuitry. i'm a clone of me with my psychology. there’s no room for me in my reality. i made something then i burned it, did it on purpose. i can't tell if it was worth it or if i deserve it. and i keep winning the game and it makes me feel more worthless. and i keep wandering off into different universes.