Inner Self

I feel blood rushing through my ears Words are creeping up my throat Tears make me feel I'm gonna choke But I close my eyes, keep a straight face There's nothing more embarrassing Than showing out how you've been feeling And I feel like slipping out the back door Why did I agree to be here This can only end in tears But I smile and wave and keep my head high Though this place should feel like home I'm somehow feeling all alone Not quite young enough To be considered sweet Not quite old enough to be seen as complete So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far Maybe all of it's in my head Other kids can blend so well While I just feel like I'm in hell So why can't I seem to ever get it right Outcast or the special one I wish that I could just have fun And I want to say that I don't mean to Screw up conversation flows But everybody but me knows The way to be perfect in the spotlight 'Cause though this place should feel like home I'm somehow feeling all alone Not quite young enough To be considered sweet Not quite old enough to be seen as complete So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far Not quite young enough To be considered sweet Not quite old enough to be seen as complete So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far