you don't even know

You don't even know How much I wanna die You don't even know How hard I try To keep myself sane To keep myself safe You don't even know That every night I lie and I cry I lie and I cry I lie and I cry Tell me a reason to live Tell me a reason to love Why even exist When everything is a lie So I'm trying to save myself But it's hard when I hate myself So through every day And every night I lie and I cry I lie and I cry I lie and I cry Please tell me I'll be okay Because I don't know what to say Help me I'm lost And I don't want another day You don't even know I made a mistake I made a mistake I made a mistake Or am I a mistake ?