Bottles and Burdens

I've been trying to run from all my demons, but they always find their way back home I've been fighting with the past, yeah, it's weighing me down Got a bottle in my hand, trying to bury the sound Mama said I had a purpose, but I lost it somehow Took the wrong road, now I'm too far to turn around I can hear the church bells ringing in my head, but the whiskey in my veins keep me talking to the dead Tattoos tell the stories that my lips never said I've been running from regret, but it's catching up instead Lord, I'm lost, don't know where to go Carry my sins everywhere I roam Try to break free, but I can't let go So I drown my pain in the bottle I hold Yeah, I know I ain't living right Told myself a thousand times Said I'd change, but it's hard to fight When the devil's got you hypnotized I see my mama's eyes when she look at me Praying that I find some peace But peace don't come when the pain runs deep And I ain't slept in about three weeks Take this weight up off my soul Lord, I'm tired of losing control Lord, I'm tired of losing control I've been to hell and back, but I'm still standing Trying to find grace, but I keep landing Back in the place where the ghosts start dancing Dark thoughts creeping and my hands keep trembling Damn, I don't want to be the man I was But I don't know if I deserve that love If I don't wake up when the sun comes up Tell my mama that she raised me tough So I drown my pain in the bottle I hold Try to break free, but I can't let go