Memories

One of my earliest memories was bloodshed (ugh) You see, on the ends, all the crazy things you see through a window You grew up on a household where everybody hates the back bread You fight for the last slice like we Kimbo Winter time walks to primary school, we took the slip road (uh-huh) Had to climb five flights of stairs becah the lift broke (uh-huh) Hard tryna fix a broken home, this home been broke I got shipped to Ghana, missed the primary school disco To think that was eighteen years ago makes me feel old (suh-suh-suh-suh) Yo, you could avoid an outcome so much it turns inevitable Pops made mistakes, I still put him on a pedestal And I can only blame myself for gettin' involved I was sittin' on a rock like Fred Flintstone Prayin' to the Lord that a fiend'll ring the flip phone The side effect of memories (the side effect) Is weighing on me mentally (it's weighing) That can be a friend to me or an enemy (can be a friend to me, to me or an enemy) The side effect of memories (the side effect) Is weighing on me mentally (it's weighing) That can be a friend to me or an enemy (can be a friend to me, to me or an enemy) And now the consequence is PTSD, there's jealousy and envy I'm sat alone, I'm thinkin' everybody's out to get me (argh) I try and change, but my destiny, it just won't let me I seen everyone progress, except me I been imprisoned by my memory, I'm free but not free (One) Chest pains, I think I need Ibuprofen (One) Got cold feet with insomnia, I've had no sleep (argh) You seen your bro get stabbed and hope he don't sleep (uh) I wrapped my vest around his belly, say he won't bleed (argh) He's havin' nightmares now, he started sippin' codeine (turn) Mother had co-de's, but never had a codie Should've been Maldives and poppin' off in Sony (turn, turn) And I can only blame myself for gettin' involved (turn, turn) I was sittin' on a rock like Fred Flintstone Prayin' to the Lord that a fiend'll ring the flip phone The side effect of memories (the side effect) Is weighing on me mentally (it's weighing) That can be a friend to me or an enemy (can be a friend to me, to me or an enemy) The side effect of memories (the side effect) Is weighing on me mentally (it's weighing) That can be a friend to me or an enemy (can be a friend to me, to me or an enemy)