Double Helix

I believed in myself an never on faith Circle round speed demon put me on tape Masked feelings unveiled leap of fate Keep one wolf alive sheep are never safe Yea See this is therapeutic Never sold drugs had to live thru it Wish I drew shit Paint a picture of my life Family fights and how it got abusive Dreamin lucid Spoiled love becomes putrid Its what you get tryin cross cupid Born to swoon go farther imma fighter Father in his bubble wit a spoon over lighters Put hands on mom bounced years later Got older all my tears made fears greater Hope pop calls - see his sons fine But too busy pushing white like a gumline I remember vividly in the living room Mom dragged dizzily out her living tomb Non responsive slippin outta conscious Grippin tight pills that got us in this nonsense Back to the moment at hand try to understand Just a boy watching medics do what they can Mom awakes fighting man to man this aint no bluff Foiled plan screams let me die this enough An made it thru Stomach pumped stronger then before Dumped the pills rehab Wait theres more Too young to see the signs or raise caution Few years later now Im shoppin for a coffin This pain I never felt, times I blame myself Took her own life found strangled by a belt As I write its like my lifes a greek tragedy Moms hangin there like a fucken piece tapestry