The same page (feat. Erinn McDonell)

I hope i'm making you proud Gran I really do See I can't even put into words what my gran meant to me See 14 year old me can't comprehend how much you meant to me I was silly stupid I took you for granted Thought you was always going to be around And Then you started repeating yourself Over and over the same lines came out Over and over there's still doubt I'm out See I was naive dementia got you I didn't see what you meant to me But now I see I see those flowers on you I see the blood that flows within me Were two of a kind I might of lost you but your still with me So please can I just go back in time Just for a moment So I can listen to your pain And try to understand your brain Go back to the good times Where your Sunday roasts shined Where you'd made us a treasure trail Even when you were most frail You hid it so well And so did I I'll sit here crying when someone mentions your name I'll light a candle and watch that flame Think of all the good times I hope I'm half the person you were You were so strong Now this songs for you Because you made me flew We didn't know you were a poet You kept that inside So many years of hurt, pain, suffering All by yourself you took it on Now all we have is your poems Where your words are eternal And I haven't read them I'm too scared I'm too scared to see the similarities What I've been through you've been through but I'm here putting it on a page I want people to see the pain I want people to see the beauty I want the people to see my gran One day I'll have the strength to read your poems But for now I have your memories poetry was your potion Were you wrote with so much emotion Music is my saviour The pen is my life line It's so therapeutic Is it because of genetics? That I lost my mind For two months I thought I saved you When I needed to save myself But you were always here Your poetry flowed through me Like oxygen I need to breathe Like the anti depressants making me smile Like these antipsychotics making me sane I'll stand in the rain and look up to the sky Asking why, why can't I fly So this ones for you, it's all for you Gran