How It Feels

F*ck a birthday i was tryna stay alive Cause anytime you don't respond a noose forms in my mind And when the cuts turn vertical the blame is on I (You) Not cause you didn't f*ck me cause you said you wanted to And i shouldn't even want you to you've lived another life or two The disconnect is so apparent i feel like a single parent I ain't feel real for so long And you never led me on But when i came over i was standing in the wrong And it feels like you didn't care all along And half of my music is our song Broke up with the girl How does it feel Did it all for you How does it feel Never saw each other How does it feel The cut that's in my leg That's how it feels Everything on dead That's how it feels And i know you don't regret That's how it feels And was this even real That's how it feels And i love you and i hate you That's how it feels That's how it feels, that's how it feels That's how you heal, that's how you heal That's how it feels, that's how it feels That's how you heal, that's how you heal In love with you the living room A dog two kids some weed not hid Make enough money we ain't gotta get mid Used to think I'm funny now she can't even pretend Fifty is the middle but its feeling like the end Do i have a tumor or i am depressed Its a fucking chore to get excited when you undress That's how it feels, that's how it feels That's how you heal, that's how you heal That's how it feels, that's how it feels That's how you heal, that's how you heal