Was It Even Real At All?

Hope (hope hope hope) Burns faster on the roughest tides And far away (far far far) The party started but I'm not there So give (give give give) Just give me a reason to trust you again This back and forth is Not how I wanted to remember you While I was wasting away the day Your heart was slowly fading away And while you ran so carelessly You left me wondering Screaming Why's my heart so hard to reach? If I could fix my exclusivity Ten thousand strikes against my heart Only show more of what you are The painted nails you left on me Now fade all but your memory And you Was it even real for you? Cuz it was so damn real for me Your love is like a prophecy That never comes to be And I know I'll no longer be your comfort The sink will wash away what the tears won't My heart starts to plead with my conscience Oh please let me breathe Screaming Why's my heart so hard to reach? If I could fix my exclusivity Now I wonder was it even real at all? Or was I just a fucking fly up on your wall? The way you left me in the breeze And never told me a goddamn fucking thing (Screaming) Why's my heart so hard to reach? I know you can't fix my exclusivity