Survivor's Guilt

Well it hit me like a bomb - I'm happy? Why? It seems like only yesterday I wished that I would die But then I heard you got evicted, I heard that you got sick Back to bed, now, everyone goodnight Sorry I had a real great fucking year While you were crying about how much you hate it here But now I've got survivor's guilt and I just wanna disappear Maybe the problem here is something deeper than A surface level wish for those I know Have you been conditioned? Do you feel that friction? When you succeed while those around you don't? Sorry I had a real great fucking year While you were crying about how much you hate it here But now I've got survivor's guilt and I just wanna disappear And the sky opened. The rain freezing in place. This place, a tapestry to the exact moment I lost my composure Forever enshrined like a castle of stone and mortar now forgotten But it will return! Oh yes, it will return, rebuilt and renewed! A new foundation upon which you will rise like a mountain It will be a beacon - a waypoint for those still searching Reassuring them that the search is worth searching The search is worth searching The search is worth searching