What Am I Doing?

The grass is always greener Always more peculiar With lean years growing leaner This medicine won't cure you Now The days are getting dimmer Darkness you're slipping into Who knew that hearts could blister? Don't let this disease kill you Now Oh, what am I doing? Oh, what the hell am I doing? The words that we leave hanging Things said that need no saying The scenes we keep replaying This thing's beyond our saving Now I swear I only meant you good, I swear Oh, what am I doing? Oh, what the hell am I doing? My love is not selfless